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Picture Perfect

Today started out as any other day, but it quickly became out of the ordinary. The sky was filled with pewter grey clouds, glowing from behind by the sun, and streaked through with blue slivers. It was one of the most inspiring images I’ve had in a long time, and it made me feel slightly optimistic going into school. Oddly enough, things went downhill as soon as I stepped inside. Due to it being a faculty meeting schedule today, classes started an hour late. During this 1 hour period of nothing, I played Warcraft and had ended up having to cheat, making me feel pretty tired. During TA, Largo got us all together and was talking about how someone had taken her agenda, believing that it was a form of ‘sabotage’, and that if it wasn’t found she would lose faith in the entire TA group (she is fairly certain that the person that took the agenda is someone in TA). For some odd reason, this made me feel even worse, although I had nothing to do with the missing agenda. Unfortunately, I had a book talk during second period, and I was feeling terrible so I ended up not saying anything during the conversation with the other members of my group.

Although a bit late to put this in, I had the epiphany once yesterday, while writing an essay in class for English, and again during the book talk today. At first, while trying to write my essay within the allotted time limit, I was finding it very hard to buckle down, read the given article and create my persuasive essay. It took me about 10 minutes of the given one hour to finally start to write, and when I did I couldn’t stop. It felt so good to finally be working properly again after so long of taking a break. The pencil flew over the paper, scribbling barely legible words faster than I could think. I didn’t have to read it back to myself; I knew that what I wrote was good. It helped me to realize the value of good work, this appreciation of working towards something, that sense of accomplishment.

Things started to brighten up during lunch-time at Greenquest though, as I was doodling on the back of the announcements during the meeting. I ended up making a decently rendered truck. Ben started to draw on it too, and at the end of the meeting the back of the announcements sheet looked pretty cool, with Truck 51 pumping smoke and spewing gravel from it’s tires, as well as some other oddities splayed around the sheet. Periods 4 and 5 were the best though, as Karen and Jeff were downstairs with me for the remainder of the day. During the afternoon, I spent the rest of school joking around with Jeff, eating whatever food I could get my hands on and picking lint off of Karen’s back/tickling her. This was definitely the highlight of the entire day; I was finally happy again, after moping around for most of the morning. Sometimes, while I was picking her back, my hands would graze her skin; it was electrifying. As smooth as silk, as warm as the gentle heat from a fire, it helped me realize the simple pleasures of her company. She smelled pleasant too…I could slightly smell shampoo coming from her hair, which was better than any perfume that people normally wear. Tickling her was fun too, because she would always leap forward whenever I poked her, as if she got shocked by my finger. I’m just hoping this weekend will be nice enough to enjoy.