setasaway's Blog

Karen.

Who would have thought that I’d be writing in this freaking blog a week after school begins. Clearly, something is up with my blood pressure, otherwise I would not be wasting my time with this. But I am. Maybe it’ll help blow off some steam.
To say the least, yesterday was a complete disaster. Maybe start with the night before that actually. So I’m supposed to be talking to Karen, however she seems to have this habit of liking to leave whenever the opportunity comes up, and not telling me. Seriously? Maybe it doesn’t sound as bad as I’m making it out to be… example (or at least the most recent one I can remember that was an obvious tell). She goes off to do some shit, and then I say something along the lines of “fine, im going to go downstairs to help my dad for a bit” or something like that. She seems to get UPSET with this for some reason, and then upon returning says “im going to go downstairs and play with my sisters on the wii”. Ok maybe this doesn’t sound as bad as I’m making it out to be, but everyone needs an instigator. Skip ahead a few hours and shes been one for…wait for it… a few hours. Im sitting there, having been waiting (as seems to be the case many a time in this relationship) for a few hours and she comes on, talks for like ten minutes and then just disappears. Again. No words, nothing. And then all of a sudden im supposed to assume that she went to shower or something, and that I should KNOW that shes going to be coming back at x time. She gets all mad at me for leaving, despite her having done it multiple times to me; do you know how it feels now? I hope you do, because its incredibly annoying and inconsiderate; if you’re asking, yes, I went to bed at like 1:55 after waiting for 55 minutes for her to come back from wherever she went (had a suspicion that she went to shower, but why would you take 55 minutes to shower…)
Obviously this led to her leaving an irate message to me when I wake up the next morning telling me exactly how I feel everytime she does this; except from her perspective. Funny isn’t it? What you do to me, you don’t seem to like done to you. But you don’t seem to realize this. Or maybe you just don’t care; regardless of whichever one this is, I find it unacceptable that you can’t seem to comprehend that you can’t just have everyone run by YOUR schedule all the time. I have things to do to, and if you would kindly inform me of when to expect you back, then I could plan accordingly. But you never do this. You always decide to never tell me anything, to leave me floundering in the dark while you go about what you want to do. And it is incredibly frustrating. What you felt that night? That’s only a taste of what you give me.
Yesterday as well; she is supposed to come back at around 7 from her volunteering, yet guess what. She kindly decides to leave out, AGAIN that she is doing something afterwards. Thanks a bunch. Im glad to know that you care about me enough to make me wait another 7 hours for you to do something, while I sit here doing absolutely nothing and waiting for you to come back. And what do you when you come back? “Let’s sleep”. That’s right. Sleep. Because I waited 7 hours for you to tell me what I wanted to do hours ago. Apparently I didn’t stay up for 7 hours for you to talk to me. Once again you make me do what you want to do, and instead you never, even ONCE seem to care for what I want. This relationship seems all about what you want, you, you, you. If this can’t resolve itself, then sorry, I cannot do this anymore. You drive me to the point of insanity, with your constant disregard of me. Whenever I try and tell you this, you always turn a deaf ear. It really does seem like you don’t care.